What am I to you? -- Norah Jones

What am I to you
Tell me darling true
To me you are the sea
Fast as you can be
And deep the shade of blue

When you're feeling low
To whom else do you go
See I cry if you hurt
I'd give you my last shirt
Because I love you so

If my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
I never want to part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
I love you when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you

Yeah well if my sky should fall
Would you even call
Opened up my heart
Never wanna part
I'm giving you the ball

When I look in your eyes
I can feel the butterflies
Could you find a love in me
Could you carve me in a tree
Don't fill my heart with lies

I will you love when you're blue
Tell me darlin' true
What am I to you
What am I to you
What am I to you

exams...

haiz... only had a paper so far... the end of exams seems so far away.... 1st dec!!

going to try to organise a womba outing, probably on the 4th a sat.. hopefully can have at least of them.. hee....

anyone knows frens who owns a Vespa? been thinking of getting a motorbike... judging from my current finances, i can never own a car till many yrs later... thinking of getting a scootor for the time being... and Vespa is so cool!! =)

Nov 15

one year on...

early morning call...

got a shock on fri morning.. was still sleeping when i got an unknown phonecall.
"Is this Lt Chen?" (with the mispronounced "chen" again...)
"errr, ya... who is this?" (got confused by his pronunciation)
"Major Peng from navy pers here."
"Oh hi sir..." (frantic... trying to recall who this person here....)

my mind is trying to process what did i do wrong... it's rare for a major to call me personally, and not thru a clerk... heart starting to beat... fully awake now...

"are u still in service?"
"ya, but i'm studying in NUS now.." (shucks.. must stop saying ya to a major...)

I was thinking, ok, maybe this is abt vacation attachment.. but why the major have to call me directly? hmm, maybe cos he has a project that he wants me to help... maybe he heard of my good work done during previous attachments... haha.... (inflated self again...)

Maj: "oh you know the IPPT incident ah, i need to ask u some stuff...."

hmm, then i was trying hard to think... then i remembered... "ya, sir?"

Maj: "was it a big short cut the person took?"
And then he went on to ask me a few more questions. like if i was alone, etc etc...

anyway the story goes like this:
During the last july holidays, i took my annual IPPT at sembawang naval base. it was a 2 and a 1/2 rounds around the camp. then at the finishing stretch, i saw this guy walk down a staircase beside the road and joined in. at that time there were only a few pple in front of me (navy pple are not fit enough), and i think there wasn't anyone close behind me and my buddy. my "spider sense" kicked in and i tried to catch my buddy's attention. but i was short of breath, so i just kept eye contact on that bugger... at the finishing point, i quickly summoned the PTI and told him what i saw. thankfully i could remember what shoes he was wearing (trust me to notice such details..) and pinpointed the person. then the PTI called the supervising and conducting officers, both enciks. strange that they went back to their office b4 the ippt ended, but that's another story... (slackers!!) anyway they asked me to write a report and sign it. So i did.

That was a few days b4 my attachment at Tracom ended, and i told them that i was going back to study. then they had to call me when i was at home (punggol) to ask me to sign a typewritten version of my report... argh... but i didn't in the end.. i asked my buddy to do so.. haha...

then now suddenly this phonecall.. to ask more abt the incident.. still not settled!! the inefficencies... sigh... disappointing...

Happy Deepavali to all

packing my stuff now.. going home soon... hopefully can be more productive there, without my comp... though there's the tv and x-box, haha.... but at least there's my mum to take care of my meals for me.. that's a huge plus...

pple reading this blog, study hard yah? shall enjoy life after this exams.. and to train hard for biathlon... =)

thursday again.. it's time for OC!

just finished watching OC.. seth's grandmother came over to their home. affectionately called "Nana", it seems that the rest have a rather harsh impression of her. however the moment she arrived till after she went to visit the restaurant, she was on her best behaviour.. which confused the rest of the family... then sandy tried to find out why she changed so much, and she went back to her real self... then she blurted out that it was bcos she had cancer and only have 4 more months to live... so she just wants to spend time with her son and grandchildren... and leave a good impression...

sigh... does a person need to face death to really find out what is impt in his/her life? would it be too late then? i did some reflection, and starting to get worried for myself... is what i'm doing now going to matter in my life at all? is this how i want to be remembered by others? have i been guilty of neglecting my true friends for the past few yrs? anyone can tell me the answer??

what will you do, if you know that you only have 4 months to live?

dinner@kuok

it definitely wasn't the best i cooked... the garlic was burnt, making the chicken surface blackish.. the doumiao was too salty.. the toufu wasn't to my expectations.. at least the omelette was good, golden-brown and crisp. though there were too much cheese.. haha... i hope you didn't feel obligated to say that u really liked it.. my feelings will not be hurt that easily, i knew it wasn't that good.. guess it was just too much "hype", haha.. next time cook u a better meal ok? =)