sigh..

it's such a wonderful feeling to get when i see a person light up the moment i appear out of nowhere. the tingling joy when that person laughs at my lame jokes and clownish antics.. and declare that my presence is much appreciated.. everything else is forgotten. the ozone depletion, the palestinian conflict, not enough pple for soccer, worldwide poverty, homework, money, elections, pimples...

but it can be tiring at times, esp after a long time trying hard to keep it up, to always be in high spirits when it is not so inside of me. and it sounds uncharacteristically selfish of me to say this, but sometimes i don't get anything out of all these.. am i really a fren? or just "someone"?