argh...

what happened? i was driving so smoothly just on fri, but today i made so many mistakes that i'm sure today is the worst.. nearly went straight into the kerb in front of my while u-turn, or rather i didn't even attempt to turn.. my mind just went blank.. haiz.. plus my lane discipline was lacking, gear changing was not smooth.. could be due to the fact i woke up early, or could be mon blues, or that i'm still not progressing with my fyp, or the buried loneliness pulling me into my own gut slowly but surely.. or could be cos liverpool lost again.. maybe all these, plus all the silly things happening around me these days.. it's killing me, i swear..

cried in my sleep.. again.. cried very hard this time round.. kind of refreshing, took a nap of almost 3 hours. makes me forget even what i was crying abt. but just 10 mins back in this world makes me so depressed again.. hmm should i go watch i not stupid 2? haiz i'll decide tmr.. so many other things i should be thinking abt instead.. oh time for dinner. shall go meet some real frens, hope that makes me feel better..